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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Teen_Wolf_(TV)
  Relationship:
      Derek_Hale/Stiles_Stilinski
  Character:
      Derek_Hale, Stiles_Stilinski, mentions_of_others
  Additional Tags:
      Roadtrip, after_season_2_finale, in_which_Stiles_is_irritating, and_Derek
      is_turned_on
  Stats:
      Published: 2013-01-07 Words: 6390
****** Cross Country ******
by orphan_account
Summary
     Derek needs to go to New York to visit some old friends about the
     Alpha pack. Stiles convinces Derek to let him come along. The drive
     there takes a week. How much can change in seven days?
“No. No way.”
“Come on, Derek,” Stiles said, trying to block Derek’s exit. “It’ll be fun!”
“No one could ever convince me that driving across the country with you is
fun.” He could easily shove Stiles out of the way, but he didn’t really want
to.
“It’s a road trip, Derek!”
“It’s pack business. You’re not in the pack.”
“Someone’s gotta keep an eye on you.”
Derek raised an eyebrow. “And that someone should be you because…?”
Stiles stumbled over his words, trying to think of an answer. “Because…would
you rather listen to Scott moan about Allison?”
“Those are my two choices? You and Scott?”
“Come on, Derek, it’ll be fun! I promise. I’ll look up cool attractions on the
way and I’ll even chip in for gas, if you want—”
“You won’t shut up until you get your way, will you?” Stiles shook his head;
Derek sighed, rolling his eyes. “Fine. But,” he continued as Stiles pumped a
fist in the air, “if you piss me off, I will kick you out of the car and leave
you on the road. Understood?”
“Absolutely. I’ll go pack my stuff and look up a route.”
He ran off; Derek watched him climb into his Jeep and drive away. He exhaled
slowly; why had he let Stiles convince him? He had to go to New York to meet
with a wolf pack he’d known when he lived there after the fire. He couldn’t be
sure the Alpha pack wouldn’t attack in his absence, but he trusted Isaac and
Scott to be able to defend themselves and the town. It would be nice to have
company on the long drive, though. Even if the company was Stiles. He hated the
loss of control that came with flying so he decided to drive, and Scott decided
to tell Stiles.
It wasn’t that he hated Stiles; he actually enjoyed his company most times. But
to drive across the country, in a trip that he’d already planned to take seven
days there and seven days back, would be torture. It didn’t help that his mind
would wander when thinking about Stiles, wander to ideas and impulses that he
hadn’t let control him in a long time.
After listening to Stiles’ speech on exactly which attractions he wanted to
see, Derek packed up his car and went over a checklist; he had everything. He
promised to pick up Stiles after lunch tomorrow. He didn’t get much sleep; just
like last time he’d traveled to New York, he was nervous. Trips were still
exciting to him, even after everything he’s been through.
Derek ate lunch the next day on the way to Stiles’ house. He knew the Sheriff
would be out, because Stiles didn’t want his dad to see him in the car with
Derek. Stiles came out of his house with a duffel bag and a backpack. Derek had
talked him out of bringing more by telling him that the driver got the most
space. The plan today was to reach Reno, which would take about four hours.
“So,” Stiles said, hopping in the passenger seat and buckling up, “what’s the
music situation gonna look like?”
“Music?” Derek said, driving toward the freeway. “I don’t listen to music when
I drive.”
“Dude!” Stiles looked horrified. “You want to sit, in silence, as we drive
across the country? Listening to me talk for seven days straight?”
Derek pursed his lips. “I reserve the right to skip any song you pick.”
“Sweet, thanks.” He pulled out a cord and connected his iPod.
“What did you tell your dad you were doing, anyway?”
“Visiting family. I’ve already emailed my cousin, he says he’ll cover for me.”
“And if you decide to post something on Facebook about our trip?”
“Oh, well, my dad thinks I’m on this trip with my cousin.”
Derek rolled his eyes, trying not to think of all the ways that plan could go
wrong. He didn’t want to be on the Sheriff’s bad side any more than he already
was. It was such a mistake to bring Stiles along. No one would miss Derek, but
there were a lot of people who would miss Stiles.
They stopped at a rest stop two hours into the drive, still in California.
Stiles had brought two cans of soda and finished them both, and now had to pee.
Derek sat in the car waiting for him, trying to get the annoying song that had
just been playing out of his head. He looked over the map again, even though
they were still on the freeway for most of the drive.
“Can I drive?” Stiles asked as he climbed back in the car.
“Hell no.”
“Come on, Derek. You’ll get tired!”
Derek glared at him, eyes flicking for a moment down to Stiles’ crotch, where
the zipper was still undone. “Check your fly before you leave a bathroom.”
Stiles blushed fiercely and zipped himself up. He didn’t bring up driving again
until they’d reached the hotel in Reno. Derek had made advance reservations in
every hotel, luckily after Stiles had joined the trip so they all had two beds.
He couldn’t imagine sharing a bed with Stiles. He’d sooner die.
“Which bed do you want?” Stiles asked when Derek opened the door.
“Either. Doesn’t matter.”
“When do you normally shower?”
“I don’t know. Whenever.”
“And when can I drive?”
“Never.”
“Derek—”
“My car. My rules. I can leave you here, if you like. Drive off without you.”
Stiles huffed and sat on one of the beds. “I’m a good driver.”
“I don’t care. It’s my car.”
“Driving for, like, seven hours a day can get exhausting.”
“Stiles. My car. My rules.” He tossed his duffel bag on the remaining bed.
“Where do you want to eat dinner?”
Stiles shrugged. “Whatever you think looks good, I guess.”
Derek rolled his eyes. “I’ll go pick up some fast food. Stay here, and stay out
of my stuff.” He left before Stiles could respond.
In all honesty, Derek wouldn’t have minded going out to dinner with Stiles, but
he didn’t want people to assume they were dating. Getting fast food was much
easier. He also needed alone time to deal with the semi-erection he’d been
sporting for two hours. As soon as he was in the car, he closed his eyes and
let images of Stiles cross his mind. His growing dick pressed against the
restraints of his pants.
“Dammit,” he mumbled, undoing his jeans and pulling himself out. “I do not like
him.” He stroked himself until he was close to coming, then reached for the
paper towels he kept in the glove box. “This is hormones,” he tried to convince
himself, coming with a slight groan into the paper towels. He bundled up the
cleaning supplies and reached over to put them in the garbage bag.
Derek returned to the room after picking up McDonald’s, struggling to open the
door with his hands full of food. Stiles opened the door for him.
“Oh, hey,” he said, heart racing. “I was wondering when you’d get back.”
“What did you do?” Derek asked, putting the food on the dresser.
“What? Nothing.” His heart beat faster.
“I can hear your heart, Stiles, I know you’re lying. What did you do?”
Derek looked around the room, noticing his duffel bag had moved a few inches.
Glaring at Stiles, he opened it and saw his bag of cash on the top.
“I just wanted to know how you were buying gas and hotels and—”
“Stiles, dammit, I told you not to touch my stuff!”
“I was suspicious!”
“I had nine family members die, I have plenty of life insurance policies.”
Stiles’ face drained of color. “Oh, God. I’m…I’m sorry, I didn’t—”
“Didn’t think, I know. Have I satisfied your curiosity?”
“Yeah. Yeah, sorry.” Stiles grabbed his food and sat on his bed, looking
incredibly ashamed. Derek grabbed his own food and ate on his bed, trying not
to listen to Stiles’ heartbeat. He should’ve brought Stiles along to get the
food, so he wasn’t sitting alone in a room with stuff he couldn’t touch. No,
that’s making excuses for him. He shouldn’t have been a nosy SOB.
“I pay in cash so the hunters can’t find me,” Derek said after about twenty
minutes of silent eating. “I should’ve told you, because I know you’re nosy.”
“I shouldn’t be so nosy.”
“But you are. And I should’ve anticipated that.”
Stiles shrugged, tossing his wrapper in the trash. “I should’ve…I mean, my dad
got the life insurance for my mom, and I should know.”
Derek had momentarily forgotten that Stiles’ mom was dead; the thought
depressed him. He didn’t want Stiles to know the pain he knew. He didn’t want
Stiles to know pain at all.
“Do you want to watch TV?” Stiles asked, grabbing the remote.
“Sure. Whatever’s on is fine.”
Stiles settled with some dumb cop show, while Derek pulled out a book. It was a
book that Laura had tried to get him to read when she was alive, but he never
got around to it. So he was reading it now.
“What’s your book about?” Stiles asked.
“Just a book.”
“But what’s it about? Who’s the author?”
Derek glared at him. “It’s a book Laura recommended to me.”
“Laura? Your sister?” Derek nodded. “Oh. Sorry.”
“Just watch your show and shut up.”
Instead of obeying, Stiles turned off the TV and turned his body to face Derek.
“I don’t want to fight for the whole week.”
“Then stop being stupid.”
“I didn’t know it was your sister’s book—”
“I’m talking about everything, Stiles! No stupid music, no stupid snooping, no
stupid TV shows, and no stupid questions!”
“I can put my earbuds in, if it bothers you that much.”
“You bother me.”
Stiles frowned, his overly-expressive eyes showing his pain. Derek immediately
regretted saying it, but he couldn’t take it back now.
“I’m going to change,” Stiles said, grabbing pajamas from his bag and locking
himself in the bathroom.
Derek threw the book across the room, where it hit the wall before landing on
his bag. Stiles just pushed all the wrong buttons and wouldn’t stop pushing
even when Derek threatened violence. It was not something he was used to. And
he couldn’t help but admit to himself that it turned him on.
Stiles came out of the bathroom, put his dirty clothes in a different bag, and
crawled under his covers. He was facing away from Derek.
“Stiles.”
“What?”
“I’m sorry.”
Stiles turned over. “Those words are in your vocabulary?”
“I’m apologizing, Stiles, you don’t need to be a smartass about it.”
“Fine. Accepted. Good night.”
“Stiles, I’m serious. Okay? I don’t want to fight all week either.”
“Can I play my music?”
“Yeah.”
“Cool. Thanks.”
Derek nodded, grabbing his own pajamas and going to the bathroom. While he was
changing, he noticed Stiles had left his boxers on the floor. Oh, no. He was
getting hard again. He tried to think about something else but his hand was
acting of his own accord and grabbed the discarded boxers. These were touching
Stiles in an intimate way, his dick had rubbed against this. Derek raised it to
his nose and breathed in; it smelled musky and he could detect the slight hint
of semen. He was too hard now, it wouldn’t be a good idea to go to sleep like
this. So he jerked off, trying to muffle the sound of his groan as he came.
Then he flushed the toilet and finished changing, bringing Stiles’ underwear
out with him.
“You left this,” he said in what he hoped was a casual tone.
“Oh, shit,” Stiles said, blushing and grabbing the boxers. “Thanks.”
Derek got into bed, turning off the lights and resting his head on the pillow.
“Good night,” Stiles said.
“Night.”
“Sleep well.”
“Shut up.”
“Sweet dreams.”
“Stiles, I swear to God.”
“Sorry.” He paused. “Don’t let the bed bugs bite.”
Derek grabbed his phone and threw it at Stiles, who laughed.
~~~
“Stiles!” Derek said loudly, knocking on the bathroom door.
“Yeah?” Stiles shouted over the sound of the shower.
“You don’t have any hair, what the hell is taking you so long?”
“Morning ritual! I’ll be out in, like, ten minutes!”
“Ten minutes? What the hell are you doing in there?”
“Really wanna know?”
Derek thought for a second and realized what Stiles must be doing. “Jesus
Christ, Stiles! I still have to shower!”
“If you keep talking to me, it’ll take longer!”
Derek rolled his eyes, sitting back on his bed. He should’ve showered first.
They were going to leave late. Which meant they’d arrive late. And Stiles would
probably want to stop for food more than normal, and stop for bathroom breaks,
and why the hell did he let Stiles come along?
The shower stopped, finally, but Derek knew Stiles would have to brush his
teeth and all that annoying stuff. So he sat on his bed, waiting and thinking.
In the last twenty-four hours, Derek has jerked off to the thought of Stiles
twice. That’s the highest concentration since…since before Kate, if he’s honest
with himself. He couldn’t do it with anyone else, not after her, not after the
fire. Hell, he’d barely touched himself in six years. And now, Stiles comes
along and—
“Dude, shower’s ready.” Stiles was standing in the middle of the room, hair
still slightly wet from the shower (not that he had much hair to get wet). He
was still shirtless and Derek had to physically force his eyes away from
Stiles’ chest. He really had a problem. He went into the bathroom and leaned
against the closed door, breathing heavily. How was he supposed to last a week
with this kid?
After he finished showering, they checked out of the hotel and grabbed
breakfast at Denny’s. Then they began the approximately seven hour drive to
Salt Lake City, where they would be staying tonight. After lunch, Stiles fell
asleep for about two hours, but woke up when he had to pee. And then he wasn’t
tired anymore.
“So, Derek,” he said, turning the music down slightly, “how are you?”
“Really, Stiles?”
“It’s a legitimate question.”
“I’m fine.”
“Just fine?”
“I’m wonderful, Stiles, now shut up.” The traffic was getting heavier and Derek
needed to concentrate.
“I had this really strange dream last night. We were driving down a dark road
and then this…thing comes out of the woods and you swerve to avoid it and crash
into a tree and we both die. But then, we’re in this heaven-like place and Kate
Argent’s there—”
Derek swerved slightly, staring at Stiles.
“Dude, pay attention to the road.”
“Kate was there?”
“Yeah, she was just…standing there. Smiling at you. It was really creepy.”
Derek tried to calm down, tried to think about anything else, but that dream
scared him. Stiles didn’t know about Kate, he couldn’t, not unless Kate herself
told him. Which was unlikely, since they never had any one-on-one interactions.
“Are you okay?” Stiles asked, staring at Derek with a worried expression.
“No.”
“What’s up?”
“I’m not going to tell you. Did Kate do anything else in the dream?”
Stiles thought for a second. “No. Just smiled at you. And…touched you. Like,
your chest and stuff.”
Derek felt sick, memories rising up, memories of the sex they had and the fire
and he was gripping the steering wheel so hard it might break at any minute.
“Dude, calm down,” Stiles said. “It was just a dream.”
“That’s what you think.”
“What the hell are you talking about?”
“Not here. Not like this.” He saw a sign for a rest stop and hurriedly switched
lanes to get off there. He parked as far from the other cars as possible and
got out of the car, pacing in circles. Stiles got out of the car and watched
him, the same worried expression on his face.
“I was young,” Derek said. “Stupid. Naïve. And she was…she was a beautiful
older woman who…who wanted me.”
“Are you saying—?”
“Yes, Stiles. I slept with her. She didn’t tell me she was a hunter, I just
thought…I don’t know what I thought, Stiles. And she…she used me to get close
to my family and…”
“Burned your house down,” Stiles finished. Derek nodded. “Dude, I’m sorry. I
didn’t know.”
“No one knew. You’re the only person alive who knows, besides myself.”
They were silent for a minute, Derek still pacing, Stiles just standing by the
car.
“It’s not your fault,” Stiles said.
“Of course it is, I should’ve been smarter, I led her straight to them—”
“But Kate killed them. Not you.”
“She wouldn’t have been able to if it weren’t for my stupidity.”
“She was evil, dude. She would’ve found a way—”
“Just shut up, okay? You don’t understand.”
“Yeah, I do.”
“No!” Derek shouted, stepping closer to Stiles. “You have no clue what it’s
like to have the blood of your own family on your hands!”
Stiles didn’t seem afraid even when Derek stood almost nose-to-nose with him.
“Yeah, I do. I killed my mother.”
“What?”
Stiles’ eyes were angry now. “I can’t explain it. But I killed my mother. She’s
dead because of me. So don’t say I don’t know what you’re feeling. Cuz I do.”
He turned, climbed back in the car, and put in earbuds to listen to his iPod.
Derek took a deep breath. Stiles wasn’t lying; he really believed he’d killed
his mother. That might just be the saddest thing Derek’s ever heard. He got
back in the car and started driving again. There was still about an hour until
they reached Salt Lake City, and Derek wasn’t sure if he could tolerate the
tension in the car. He even found himself wishing that Stiles would talk, which
surprised him. Why had he told him about Kate? He’d never told anyone about
Kate, not even Peter. Maybe it was about trust, but there was something else.
He felt a…connection with Stiles, something that he couldn’t explain.
As he was pulling off the freeway in Salt Lake City, Stiles pulled out his
earbuds. “Sorry,” he said.
“Don’t be.”
“We’re both pretty messed up, huh?”
Derek snorted. “You could say that.”
“I’m hungry. Where are we eating?”
Derek glanced at Stiles, feeling something well up in his chest. “Sonic.
They’ve got really great food.”
“Do they have curly fries?”
“No.”
“I want to go somewhere with curly fries.”
“Arby’s has curly fries.”
“Then let’s go to Arby’s.”
Derek glared at him. “Who’s driving?”
“Who’s more annoying?”
Derek rolled his eyes, pulling into a parking lot and pulling out his phone to
search for a nearby Arby’s. There was one only a few blocks ahead.
“Thanks,” Stiles said as they started driving again.
“Sure.”
“Can we eat in?”
“Sure.”
“Sweet.”
While they were eating, Derek could hear some of the patrons whispering about
them, asking their table partners if those two boys were dating. It took all
his self-control to not yell at them. Whatever he’d felt in the car, that odd
feeling that had risen in his chest, it was back and he couldn’t help but stare
at Stiles, hoping nothing was showing in his eyes. Stiles was too immersed in
his curly fries to notice anything.
“You look angry,” Stiles said as they were leaving.
“People are stupid.”
“Yeah, but what are you angry about?”
“So many people in that restaurant were wondering if we were dating.”
Stiles, who had taken a drink from his water bottle, choked. “Seriously?”
“Yeah. About five different tables were talking about us.”
They drove to the hotel and checked in, bringing their stuff inside. This room
was slightly smaller, but still had the requisite two beds, so Derek didn’t
mind.
“I’m showering tonight,” Derek said. “So we don’t have any more delays.”
“Sorry, dude, but it’s something I’ve done every shower since I was twelve.”
“Too much information, Stiles.”
“Come on, don’t tell me you’re one of those people who doesn’t jerk off.”
Derek rolled his eyes, grabbing his shower stuff and heading towards the
bathroom.
“You are, aren’t you?” Stiles said, blocking his path. “Is it because of
some…belief that it makes you weak?”
“It’s because my first sexual experience resulted in the death of my entire
family.”
Stiles blushed. “Oh. Right. Sorry.”
“Can I shower now?” Stiles nodded and stepped aside.
After the shower, he found Stiles sitting on his bed and watching TV; today, it
was Wheel of Fortune.
“You know,” Stiles said as Derek sat on his own bed, “this is the farthest from
home I’ve ever been.”
“Really?”
“Yeah. I’ve actually never been out of California until yesterday.”
“What a boring life.”
“Shut up,” Stiles said, laughing. Derek felt his stomach do an odd flip.
It took Derek far too long to fall asleep, as his head was filled with Stiles’
laugh, and the fact that he had made Stiles laugh. This was the first time he
was able to think about Stiles for a long time without getting hard, which
worried him. Did this mean it was moving past a simple physical attraction? Was
that the feeling that had risen in his chest? Affection?
Love?
~~~
Their next stop was Cheyenne, Wyoming, which was another seven-hour drive. They
ate at Denny’s again and started driving, but after lunch Derek started to get
tired. He’d slept a good two hours less than he’d planned.
“Stiles,” he said, pulling into a rest stop, “I need you to drive.”
“What?”
“I didn’t sleep well last night. I’m too tired to drive.”
Stiles grinned, his whole face becoming more beautiful. “That’s awesome! I
mean, sorry you didn’t sleep well, but this is gonna be great!”
“Just do it, okay? And let me sleep.”
They switched places; Derek adjusted the passenger seat and rested his head
against the window. He fell asleep as they were getting on the freeway.
When he woke up, the car wasn’t moving. He could hear Stiles ruffling through
paper. Reluctantly, he opened his eyes, seeing that they were at a rest stop.
“Stiles.”
Stiles jumped, dropping the maps in his lap. “Jesus Christ, Derek. Don’t do
that.”
“Why aren’t you driving?”
“Took a wrong turn, or something. I’m lost.”
Derek rolled his eyes, grabbing the maps. “What was the last road sign?”
“It said ‘Welcome to Colorado,’” Stiles said quietly.
“Colorado? Are you kidding me?”
“No. Sorry.”
“How the fuck did we end up in Colorado?” Derek said to himself, simultaneously
hating Stiles and finding this mishap adorable. “That’s it, you’re not driving
for the rest of the trip.”
“If you’d been awake, I wouldn’t have messed up.”
“If I’d been awake, you wouldn’t be driving. Switch spots.”
Derek somehow managed to get them back on course, but they’d lost about an hour
and a half. When they finally got to Cheyenne, they were both starving, so they
pulled into McDonald’s and ate in the car.
“I wanna show you something when we get to the hotel,” Stiles said as they left
the parking lot.
“What is it?”
“Just a computer game.”
After they checked in, Stiles pulled his computer out of his bag and started a
game, blocking Derek’s view.
“This game is called Slenderman,” Stiles said, handing the computer to Derek.
He explained the controls and then pressed the start button. “This is
legitimately the scariest game in existence.”
Derek walked around in the game, trying to find papers to collect, according to
Stiles’ instruction.
“This isn’t that scary,” he said after he picked up the first paper.
“Just you wait. Go that way, towards the house.”
Derek moved towards an odd house, occasionally hearing noises in the game to
his right. He aimed the camera that way.
“No, don’t look around!” Stiles shouted, jumping slightly. “Just look forward!”
Derek smiled at Stiles’ fear but continued forward anyway. “Go right.”
The screen started getting fuzzy, and Derek saw a tall figure in a suit at the
end of the hallway. Stiles screamed and covered his face, but Derek just moved
out of eyesight, his heart beating fast but dignity still intact.
“So, I take it I shouldn’t go back in the house?”
“Are you crazy? Just run!”
Stiles’ voice was cracking from fear and Derek just wanted to hug him tightly.
He looked back at his screen and started walking towards the woods. The game
was actually started to get a little tense. Suddenly, he turned left, and the
Slenderman was just right in front of him, and the screen went fuzzy and Stiles
screamed and Derek screamed and pushed the laptop away, where it fell to the
ground and closed, ending the nightmare. Both of their hearts were pounding,
Stiles was crouched next to the chair, and Derek was still shaking. Then the
ridiculousness of the situation hit him, and he started laughing. Here he was,
Derek Hale, Alpha, and he’d just screamed like a little girl at a video game.
Stiles looked up at him, confused, but soon started laughing too.
“That was fun,” Derek said as his heartbeat slowed.
“Easy for you to say.”
“You play now.”
“Hell no!”
“Too scared?”
“You screamed too, Derek, shut up!”
Derek laughed, patting Stiles on the shoulder. Even that little contact made
his stomach flip. “Let’s watch some TV before bed. Take our minds off the
game.”
Stiles nodded, picking up his computer and putting it in his bag. They watched
some comedy shows before Derek decided it was time for bed, since they had an
eight-hour drive to Omaha tomorrow. He showered, Stiles changed, and they
climbed into their respective beds. They’d been lying in the dark only about
ten minutes when Stiles spoke.
“Derek?”
“What?”
“I’m too…not scared, but…tense. I’m too tense to sleep.”
“Then relax.”
“I should clarify. I’m too tense to sleep alone.”
“No.”
“Derek, please.”
“No way in hell.”
“It’s just one night.”
Derek sighed. He was afraid of this as soon as Stiles said the game was scary.
He didn’t want to share a bed with Stiles because he didn’t want Stiles to
accidentally feel his boner. But what choice did he have? Stiles would probably
want to stay up and talk if he couldn’t sleep.
“Fine. One night. If you tell any of the pack, I will murder you.”
“Thanks.” Stiles got out of his bed and slid under the covers next to Derek,
who was immediately hard. Stiles was so close, in just boxers and an
undershirt, and Derek’s mind wandered to all those places he wouldn’t let it
wander. But he couldn’t jerk off, it would be too obvious if he excused himself
to go to the bathroom now, so he just lay there and tried to sleep.
Surprisingly, Stiles’ steady breathing lulled him to sleep.
~~~
Derek was kissing Stiles, pressing him into the mattress, grinding his hardness
against Stiles’ crotch. He pulled down both of their boxers and licked Stiles’
erection, which tasted so good, the precome so sweet. Then he moved up and
kissed Stiles again, pressing his dick into Stiles’ ass, enjoying the tight
heat, he wouldn’t last long like this, and sure enough, there was the
tightening in his balls, he was so close—
“Derek?”
As he was ripped from the world of dreams, Derek was vaguely aware of the
sticky mess in his boxers. And he was very aware of Stiles laying mere inches
from him.
“Derek?” Stiles said again.
“What?” Derek responded, clenching his fist.
“Are you alright? You were groaning, sounded like you were sick or something.”
He let out a breath of relief. Stiles was clueless. Thank God.
“Yeah, I’m fine. Just…go shower.”
“Okay.” He got up and grabbed some clothes, heading into the bathroom. As soon
as Derek heard the shower start, he was out of bed, stripping of the dirty
boxers and grabbing a fresh pair. He buried the come-covered pair in his dirty
laundry bag, extremely embarrassed even though no one was here to see it. He
got dressed in silence, trying not to think too much about it.
When Stiles got out of the shower, they packed up and left, stopping to eat at
Denny’s before jumping on the freeway. Derek was really enjoying the routine of
it, waking up and Stiles showering and eating at Denny’s and driving and
stopping for lunch and driving and the most enjoyable part was Stiles and Derek
hated himself for saying that because it was so cheesy but it was true. He
loved spending so much time with Stiles, sometimes talking but mostly just
sitting, listening to music, watching TV, whatever. This was, perhaps, the
happiest Derek’s been in a long time.
They never played that computer game again, probably because Stiles didn’t want
to share a bed with Derek either. Nothing exciting happened until they reached
Gary, Indiana, the next day. It had been another eight-hour drive, and Derek
was so tired. He took a quick shower and started to get dressed before
realizing he’d forgotten a shirt, so he left the bathroom shirtless.
Stiles was lying on the bed, watching TV, but his mouth dropped open when Derek
came in. As tired as he was, Derek noticed Stiles’ crotch bulge slightly. He
pretended to ignore it and grabbed a shirt, pulling it on and flopping on his
bed. Stiles gulped and excused himself to the bathroom. Derek listened intently
as Stiles dropped his jeans and started stroking himself, his hand moving
faster than Derek thought possible, and he heard Stiles’ choked groan as he
came. Then Stiles flushed the toilet and came back out in the room, face
slightly red but otherwise giving no sign that he had just masturbated to the
thought of his roommate. Derek watched him as he sat back on the bed.
“What?” Stiles said, his heart still racing from his orgasm.
Derek thought about kissing him, about pushing him into the mattress and
fucking him raw, but he just shrugged and looked back at the TV.
He had another wet dream that night, which again escaped the notice of Stiles.
They left for Youngstown, Ohio, which was only a six-and-a-half-hour drive.
Stiles was oddly quiet.
“What’s up?” Derek asked as they crossed the border into Ohio.
“What?”
“You’re quiet. Too quiet. It’s unnerving.”
“Oh. Just thinking.”
“About?”
“Just stuff, Derek, okay?” Stiles’ voice was sharp, angry.
“Okay, calm down. I was just asking.”
They barely talked during lunch. Derek could almost smell the shame on Stiles,
but he could also smell the desire. And knowing that Stiles wanted him back,
knowing the feeling was mutual, Derek could finally give it a name: love. He
was in love with Stiles.
When they checked into the hotel, Derek left on the pretext of picking up
dinner. He did grab food, but not before visiting a grocery store and buying
condoms. He then thought for a second and went to a sex shop to buy lube. Can’t
be too careful.
When he got back, Stiles was watching TV. Derek handed him the food and stuffed
the condoms and lube in the bedside drawer while Stiles was distracted. He knew
that Stiles wouldn’t look in that drawer.
After they finished eating, Derek let the food settle for an hour before
speaking.
“I heard you the other day.”
Stiles flushed, not looking Derek in the eyes. “What do you mean?”
“I heard you jerk off, after you saw me shirtless.”
Stiles blushed darker. “That wasn’t—”
“It’s okay, Stiles. It was…it was really hot.”
Stiles looked extremely confused. Derek got up and kissed him, pressing him
down into the mattress, straddling him. Although caught off guard, Stiles
quickly reciprocated the kiss, brushing his hands down Derek’s chest. Derek sat
up to take off his shirt, and Stiles took off his, and Derek licked his chest
and ran his teeth on Stiles’ nipples, which made him groan and buck his hips
upward. Derek moved down, pulling down Stiles’ jeans and rubbing his palm
through his boxers. Then he pulled the boxers down and licked Stiles, causing
another groan. He tasted even better than in the dreams. He sucked until he
knew Stiles was close, then pulled back to take off his own pants.
Pulling out a condom and lube from the drawer, Derek continued lightly stroking
Stiles, keeping him on the very edge. He rolled on the condom and squeezed some
lube onto his fingers, pressing a finger against Stiles’ entrance.
“Be careful,” Stiles gasped as Derek’s first finger slid in. “I don’t want it
to hurt.”
“I’ll be careful,” Derek whispered in his ear, moving his finger.
“Have you done this before?”
Derek paused, looking down at Stiles. “No. But I’ll be careful. I promise.”
He pressed another finger inside the smaller man, stretching in the most
cautious way possible. Stiles’ erection was shrinking, but Derek had
anticipated that. After a few minutes, he pressed in another finger, curling
them in an attempt to find Stiles’ prostate. He never found it, or if he did,
he didn’t press hard enough.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” Derek asked as he withdrew his fingers,
squeezing more lube on his dick and Stiles’ hole.
“Yeah. Just…be careful, please.”
Derek pressed his head into Stiles, feeling his muscles give way to the
intrusion. Stiles screwed up his face in pain, clutching Derek’s arms. He
pressed forward, stopping every inch or so to allow Stiles to relax. Even with
the condom, this was the greatest feeling on earth. He was inside Stiles,
inside the only person he’s loved since Kate, and he knew it wouldn’t turn out
the same this time, he knew Stiles was good.
When he was up to the hilt, he paused, wondering if he should even try to make
Stiles come while he was inside. He looked down at his partner, who never
showed physical pain unless it was severe but who was showing it now, and
decided it wouldn’t happen.
“Okay,” he said, leaning down to kiss Stiles, “I’m gonna move now. Is that
okay?”
“Yeah,” Stiles said.
Derek pulled back and thrust forward, regretting the speed as soon as he saw
Stiles’ face. But Stiles nodded, indicated that he should keep going, so he
did, moving his hips in long strokes, thrusting into Stiles slightly harder
each time. Holy fuck, this felt good. Amazing. Better than Kate. Why was he
thinking about Kate? He was here, with Stiles, inside Stiles, and he was about
to come.
“I want you to come on me,” Stiles said. How had he known? Whatever, Derek
pulled out, yanked off the condom, and jerked himself until he was coming all
over Stiles’ chest, moaning his name. As the last of his come dripped onto the
body below him, he leaned forward and kissed him, panting.
Before completely collapsing, Derek remembered that he hadn’t gotten Stiles off
yet, and he started to stroke him back to hardness. He was too tired to move
down and suck him off, so he just jerked him until Stiles arched his back and
came, shouting Derek’s name. Then Derek collapsed next to him, sleep already
threatening to engulf him. But he couldn’t sleep, he had to clean up, so he got
up and found the discarded condom, tossing it in the trash. Then he used
tissues to clean up Stiles, and grabbed both of their clothes.
“It hurts to move,” Stiles said as he pulled on his boxers and shirt.
“That’ll only hurt for a bit, I think. That’s what the websites said. Come
here.” Stiles sat next to him on the bed. Derek put his arm around him. “You
can share my bed, if you want.” Stiles laughed, nuzzling into Derek’s shoulder.
“God, I love you,” Derek said before he could stop himself.
“What?” Stiles pulled back, a strange expression on his face.
“I didn’t…I mean, I meant it, but—”
Stiles shut him up with a kiss. Then he crawled under the covers and turned off
the light. Derek, shocked by the sudden change, crawled under the covers with
him, putting an arm over him.
“I love you, too,” Stiles whispered, too quiet for the average person to hear
but loud enough for werewolves. Derek smiled, kissed Stiles’ head, and fell
asleep.
They woke up at the same time the next morning, knowing they still had a seven-
hour drive to New York. While Stiles was showering, Derek packed the condoms
and lube into his bag. If everything happened the way he wanted it to, they’d
use all of the condoms and all of the lube before they got back to Beacon
Hills.
Oh, man, Beacon Hills. How was he going to explain this to the pack? They’d
know as soon as they smelled Stiles. Was he really willing to dump Stiles
simply to have dignity with the pack? And the idea of dumping Stiles, that
required them actually dating, and he wasn’t sure where Stiles stood on that.
“Earth to Derek,” Stiles said.
“What?” He hadn’t even realized Stiles was out of the shower, much less talking
to him.
“I asked you whether I look good in this outfit.”
Derek’s eyes roamed Stiles, and of course he looked good, because he looks good
in everything. “Yeah, you look great. It’d look better on the floor, but you
look great.”
Stiles laughed. “Thanks. We should go. It’s seven hours, right?”
Derek nodded. They grabbed their stuff, checked out, and piled into Derek’s
car.
“By the way,” Stiles said, “I meant it. Last night.”
“Me too.”
Stiles reached across and grabbed Derek’s free hand. It felt so natural to hold
his hand, as if Stiles’ hand was created to fit in Derek’s. They spent most of
the drive holding hands, and Derek no longer cared if people thought they were
dating in restaurants. Because they were dating. Stiles was his boyfriend.
The meeting with the wolf pack went well; none of them dared touch Stiles,
because they could tell Stiles was Derek’s mate. He learned some new tactics on
defense against the Alpha pack. They stayed in New York for another day and
then started the long drive home.
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